Thanks for asking.
I used to be really into photography, and quite enjoyed it. I don't want to say I was great or anything, but certainly had a naturally better ability than most, and even was contacted by some locally-famous photographers who dug my stuff. I was hoping to maybe turn my hobby into something a little more serious, maybe not a career, but certainly a passionate hobby that might earn some money.
Then I got instagram, and discovered that there's always very similar pictures that I took, some better, and some worse, and it really bummed me out. Maybe I wasn't as good as I thought, but it really took the enjoyment of the hobby out. Why create art if everyone else is doing it?
So I ask myself that question every time I walk into my room and the A7iii with 40 shutters sits on my counter, unused. Really hoping to find meaning again with the hobby.
I enjoy photography because it marries nicely with my other passions: Being outdoors, enjoying nature and travel. Because of this, I've gravitated towards wildlife and landscape photography.
The other thing that's happened and has evolved over a period of many years is that I've become part of a strong social circle of like-minded photographers. These are people I've met while being outdoors and travelling. Some of these people are very experienced photographers who have taught me a lot and have inspired me to do and learn more.
In your case, my first and most obvious comment to you is to stay off Instagram but it goes deeper than that. Myself, I enjoy looking at the work done by others and will often pursue an image that I've seen and really liked because I want it for myself and I want to do myself. I don't care at all if it's been done a thousand times before by others.
I think that this boils down to my perspective that I enjoy photography for me and me alone. I'm not in competition with anyone but myself.
I suggest to you TSE that you can find inspiration in the company of other photographers...photographers in real life - not in the false reality of social media platforms like Instagram. If possible, join a camera club. They're everywhere and may find that other people provide you with a different outlook.
The other suggestion, if time and finances permit and if it's of personal interest to you, is to go somewhere, travel, for the specific purpose of photography. This was a game-changer for me in my pursuit of wildlife and landscape images. My wife is not into photography so when I travel with her, I take a few vacation snapshots but that's it. The rest of the time I simply relax and enjoy our time together. But when I travel by myself or with a photography friend or two, it's a very different situation where I'm up and out at bizarre hours chasing light and photographic opportunities that I would have missed sunning on a beach or sitting in a restaurant. Not that I don't enjoy relaxing on a beach or a great meal, it just works better for me that I'm able, and have the opportunity, to separate the two.
Sorry for the long-winded response
@TSE but your question is an important one and it's one that I sense you're struggling with.
~ Peter