I think I'm suffering a bit now from a sort of sedimentary build up of minor aggravations around the path Apple have trodden over the last half decade with the MacBook lineup. In 2015 when I got my first MacBook Pro, everything was so great, it's a machine I loved instantly and still do today. About a year in I was not ready to upgrade yet, but I was certainly curious to see the 2016 update, that was probably the point I started really looking into sites such as this and became familiar with the idea it'd likely be a full redesign, and with terms like 'SkyLake' and 'Magic Toolbar' (the rumoured name for the Touch Bar). Also the idea that the design language would probably take inspiration from the 12" MacBook (hey, great, that little computer looks amazing!).
Then we get to October 2016 - how exciting, it's finally itshappening.gif! I'm now 'into Apple' enough to watch things like their product presentation videos, I finally get to see the new design after waiting so many months! And Wow, what a beautiful computer! But oh, that costs a lot more! Wait, what if I need to plug in a USB drive? Hmm, I wonder what a keyboard with only .5mm of travel actually feels like to type on? So ok, it's going to cost a lot more going forward, well, I guess if I only upgrade at 4 year intervals I can get the final and best revision of each MacBook Pro generation, that's still a pretty nice solid/ regular upgrade path. Roll on 2019!
By mid 2017 - the butterfly Keyboard, then display flex problems come to light. Controversy is swirling over those plus the move to solely USB C, plus the price increase. A lot of my early enthusiasm is tempered, I've tried the new design out, managing to borrow a family members, and I really don't like typing on it (which is what I do a lot of). It makes my fingers sore if I want to type at over 20WPM. Later in 2017 I sign up here, I want to know if maybe there could be a 15 inch MacBook Air that's cheaper and still has 'legacy' ports. Nobody seems to be talking about it but perhaps that's why they stopped selling the 11" Air?
Flash forward to early 2019, I suppose this will be the year for me, My reservations have only grown, but I've learned choice isn't Apple's modus operandi. You go with what they deign to offer or you can look elsewhere. I'm ready to go when the 2019 15" is launched... only now there's swirling rumours about a 16" coming shortly after, and it's going to have a much better keyboard, and a bigger screen to boot! Well that sounds like it's definitely worth waiting a bit longer for!
Mid 2019, rumours about Arm macs in 2020 reach fever pitch, hmm, Apple are running circles round everyone else with the iPad performance, I've already been convinced for a while that using a close relative of the A12X in a laptop would yield impressive results -> November 2019, the 16" launches, and I'm initially very impressed, but in the end I can't get around the Apple Silicon carrot just on the horizon (rightly it seems in the end!)... Aaand that's where I'm still stuck some 20 months later. If only Apple had offered some sort of 15" M1 laptop last year.
I'm aware as I type this it all seems a bit petty, entitled and first world problemy, but disenchanted is definitely the word for my current feelings. It feels like I've been waiting and waiting and each time there's news it's bad or heavily favours waiting even longer. You could argue maybe the leaks are the problem here, but then if I'd been totally in the dark I'd probably have bought the 2019 15" and been annoyed a few months later when the 16" arrived. Or if I'd dallied until the 16" launched and got that, then just a year later I'd probably have felt a bad having dropped so much money on something that doesn't have all the revolutionary benefits of Apple Silicon. Yes there's always something better round the corner, but there's also definitely times when it is better to wait.
Leading on from that, Apple do seem to have had some definite success in cracking down on leaks, and that really just makes things even more frustrating. The rumours don't go away, we just get people inferring and projecting instead of giving out solid information. It's all started trying my enjoyment of tech/ Apple as a hobby. I do have regular breaks from here (sometimes a week, but I've gone a couple of months as well... so far I always come back though) and increasingly it feels a bit of a relief. I think it's too easy to make all this feel much bigger than it is when you immerse yourself in it because it's something you enjoy.
Anyway, that was longer and more of a rant than it probably had any right to be, but at least it's off my chest now! 🤣🤣