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Mefisto

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Experiencing a sudden and potentially permanent reduction of mental acuity.

Day before yesterday I experienced something I’ve been trained to recognize in others, but of course didn’t expect to happen to me.

The short version:

Meeting with a colleague, I noticed that my speech was slightly slurred, and I was having to make more of an effort to choose my words. And when logging into my computer, I had to concentrate harder that usual on choosing the letters on the keyboard. Those around me didn’t notice it, but I did. Finally the light bulb came on, and I excused myself to leave for a quick visit to my doctor.

In short order I was on my way to the hospital via ambulance.
Spent the next 36 hours in the hospital. Turned out I’d had a ‘mini stroke.’

No pain, and only subtle symptoms. I could have ignored it, but thankfully, did not.

A follow up visit with a neurologist is scheduled on Monday, to more fully understand what happened, and what this means for my choices going forward. My guess is it will involve changes to diet, exercise, and medication.

What I’m left with: Typing is more difficult, and to my ear, my speech is less precise. My brain feels a bit scrambled.

I am focusing on being optimistic, and grateful that it wasn’t worse. A wake-up call, perhaps.

This same thing happened to my father not that long ago. My parents were watching the news on the TV and talking about stuff going on, and all of the sudden my mother noticed that my father was taking longer than normal to form sentences, and all of the sudden he was unable to pronounce a certain word that the news story was about. A word he was able to pronounce perfectly fine just a short while ago. My mother naturally freaked out, called an ambulance and after some tests it was determined that my father had indeed had a "somewhat mild" stroke that caused the diminishing of his mental faculties. Thankfully, after having the tests done, he now has medication to "keep him in check", as the doctor put it. The one thing that actually frightens me about my parents getting old is when stuff like this starts happening. Having watched my grandfather get old while suffering from Alzheimer's was rough, and I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

Sorry for the somewhat downer ending to the previous paragraph, but seriously good for you for noticing it so swiftly and taking appropriate measures once you did. Best of luck going forward. Your attitude is a great one to have.
 

AngerDanger

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Forgot that I have a user script called "Hide Ugly MacRumors Avatars." So far, it hides one image of a cartoon head being squeezed until exploding, and I just added a pretty bad photo of the president of a little country in North America—the Joined Regions… or something.
 

Apple fanboy

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Feb 21, 2012
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My first fleeting deployment abroad since my mum's passing, (and an exceptionally busy Sunday - close to 24 straight hours observing an election) meant that Mother's Day did not have the emotional heft that it would undoubtedly have had, had I been at home.
I can relate. We just never mention it for obvious regions. If you don’t go to the shops or watch TV, you can almost forget about it.
Unlike other holidays we don’t celebrate which are harder to ignore.
 

Scepticalscribe

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Jul 29, 2008
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In a coffee shop.
I can relate. We just never mention it for obvious regions. If you don’t go to the shops or watch TV, you can almost forget about it.
Unlike other holidays we don’t celebrate which are harder to ignore.

Well, Decent Brother mentioned that it would be hard for him - and he thought that it was fortunate for me that I am out of the country the first time that Mother's Day has been celebrated since my mother passed away last December.

Agreed. I was too busy for it to even cross my mind, (not that it is celebrated here).

Today - as I was obliged to take a long bus journey - is somewhat different; the election has concluded (for now; there will be a second round in three weeks), and I have had time to think and remember; bitter sweet thoughts, then, sorrow and some happy memories, both.

However, I do recall the gnawing feeling in my gut and acute pain - actually agony - in my heart when the first Father's Day since my father had passed away occurred.
 

Apple fanboy

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Well, Decent Brother mentioned that it would be hard for him - and he thought that it was fortunate for me that I am out of the country the first time that Mother's Day has been celebrated since my mother passed away last December.

Agreed. I was too busy for it to even cross my mind, (not that it is celebrated here).

Today - as I was obliged to take a long bus journey - is somewhat different; the election has concluded (for now; there will be a second round in three weeks), and I have had time to think and remember; bitter sweet thoughts, then, sorrow and some happy memories, both.

However, I do recall the gnawing feeling in my gut and acute pain - actually agony - in my heart when the first Father's Day since my father had passed away occurred.
Anniversaries, and other holidays are the worst. I dread every one.
 

Clix Pix

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The first year following a death is always the worst as each holiday or anniversary without the loved one comes along; the second year is a tiny bit better and as time goes on it eases up so that one no longer has that acute heart-felt painful awareness as the grief hits all over again, but yes, those holidays and anniversaries are never quite the same again......
 
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Apple fanboy

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The first year following a death is always the worst as each holiday or anniversary without the loved one comes along; the second year is a tiny bit better and as time goes on it eases up so that one no longer has that acute heart-felt painful awareness as the grief hits all over again, but yes, those holidays and anniversaries are never quite the same again......
We just try and ignore them all. Christmas, Birthdays the lot.
 

Clix Pix

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Ignoring much of the hoopla that comes around certain holidays such as Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc., does help, and I've pretty much adopted that strategy by not going to the mall if I can avoid it between Thanksgiving and Christmas, and since I don't watch TV very often, that right there makes things easier. Someone's birthday, though.....that's a little different and more personal, somehow, and I always recall the birthday of each loved person who is now no longer here, but again, as time has gone on that is easier than it was the first year in particular. Here in the US we celebrate Mother's Day a bit later than you do in the UK, but yes, it's always a day tinged with sadness. This year it will be May 12th, with Father's Day following on June 16th.
 
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Apple fanboy

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Ignoring much of the hoopla that comes around certain holidays such as Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc., does help, and I've pretty much adopted that strategy by not going to the mall if I can avoid it between Thanksgiving and Christmas, and since I don't watch TV very often, that right there makes things easier. Someone's birthday, though.....that's a little different and more personal, somehow, and I always recall the birthday of each loved person who is now no longer here, but again, as time has gone on that is easier than it was the first year in particular. Here in the US we celebrate Mother's Day a bit later than you do in the UK, but yes, it's always a day tinged with sadness. This year it will be May 12th, with Father's Day following on June 16th.

Strange it’s not on the same day. I do recall it being different though, due to the emails from Nikon.com etc around US Mother’s Day.
 

Scepticalscribe

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In a coffee shop.
The first year following a death is always the worst as each holiday or anniversary without the loved one comes along; the second year is a tiny bit better and as time goes on it eases up so that one no longer has that acute heart-felt painful awareness as the grief hits all over again, but yes, those holidays and anniversaries are never quite the same again......

Exactly.

Ignoring much of the hoopla that comes around certain holidays such as Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc., does help, and I've pretty much adopted that strategy by not going to the mall if I can avoid it between Thanksgiving and Christmas, and since I don't watch TV very often, that right there makes things easier. Someone's birthday, though.....that's a little different and more personal, somehow, and I always recall the birthday of each loved person who is now no longer here, but again, as time has gone on that is easier than it was the first year in particular. Here in the US we celebrate Mother's Day a bit later than you do in the UK, but yes, it's always a day tinged with sadness. This year it will be May 12th, with Father's Day following on June 16th.

Absolutely agree.

The birthdays - because they are personal and unique to that individual - will always resonate.
 

Matz

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@Matz I am glad to hear you caught the stroke in time. That is really frightening and for me anyway I fear mental or brain issues much more than physical ones. Take care of yourself.

Thank you. I saw the neurologist yesterday, and learned a couple of things.

First, the brain scan showed no signs of a stroke. :) She was emphatic on that point.

Second, there are two conditions she wants to test for, both of which can present as a stroke: a form of seizure (don’t recall the name), or a “complex migraine.” This was news to me.

And at this point, I don’t particularly care which one it turns out to be. I am just relieved that it wasn’t a stroke.

So the test to rule out seizures is at the end of April. After that I’ll follow up with her to see what I need to do, if anything.

She also said to cut down on caffeine. :eek:
I won’t bore you with the details of my consumption, but some may regard it as excessive.
She apparently does.

It also occurred to me that I may be getting a bit burned out in my job. Perhaps some time off is in order.

Anyway, I appreciate the concern that has been expressed here. :) I am most grateful.
 

Apple fanboy

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Thank you. I saw the neurologist yesterday, and learned a couple of things.

First, the brain scan showed no signs of a stroke. :) She was emphatic on that point.

Second, there are two conditions she wants to test for, both of which can present as a stroke: a form of seizure (don’t recall the name), or a “complex migraine.” This was news to me.

And at this point, I don’t particularly care which one it turns out to be. I am just relieved that it wasn’t a stroke.

So the test to rule out seizures is at the end of April. After that I’ll follow up with her to see what I need to do, if anything.

She also said to cut down on caffeine. :eek:
I won’t bore you with the details of my consumption, but some may regard it as excessive.
She apparently does.

It also occurred to me that I may be getting a bit burned out in my job. Perhaps some time off is in order.

Anyway, I appreciate the concern that has been expressed here. :) I am most grateful.
Well to my non medical mind that sounds like good news. Some time off sounds like a given. Book it.

As for excess caffeine, my 7-10 cups of tea are all that gets me through the day!
 
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ThisBougieLife

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It's sad to see used book stores close. Another one around here (that has been around for decades) is slated to close and be replaced with more soulless unaffordable housing. Silicon Valley is experiencing cultural death. "Vibrancy" means boxy offices and $3000-a-month studio apartments for techies who will buy everything on Amazon.
 

chown33

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It's sad to see used book stores close. Another one around here (that has been around for decades) is slated to close and be replaced with more soulless unaffordable housing. Silicon Valley is experiencing cultural death. "Vibrancy" means boxy offices and $3000-a-month studio apartments for techies who will buy everything on Amazon.
It makes more sense to think of those as storage units or meat lockers.
 

Raid

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Feb 18, 2003
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So last week I had a colleague (not at work but on a committee) inform us that next meeting will be her last. She explained that she is seeking Medical Assistance in Dying (MAID) and plans to end her life over the summer. Ever since I knew her she's been on oxygen and I've found out over the past year or so that she's had a lung transplant and was constantly going to medical appointments and what-not. I also knew she had a lack of energy and couldn't walk very far without rest, but since she was always so mentally sharp, pleasant, and appeared to be happy I thought she was all-right.

It turns out that was wrong.

She explained that she's feeling weaker than ever, it looks like the anti-rejection drugs are not working as well as before and getting another transplant is not possible. She also explained that her thinking has gotten a lot slower and she's having trouble concentrating.

She's on my mind a lot because I found out she lives pretty close to me, I want to be supportive but don't have any clue as to what to offer or say.
 
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AngerDanger

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I know it’s been a while since @Shrink has posted on MacRumors, but he’s made quite an impact on the mirror of this public restroom:

shrink.jpg
 

AngerDanger

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Still photo? No Gif? What’s the matter with you?
:oops: Damnit, I told myself I wasn't going to let people on this forum make my cry anymore…

I need to learn how to make a GIF as I have three photos I need to put together. What do you use?
Hmm, my first impulse was to suggest something like FFmpeg, which is a command line tool primarily used for video conversion, but I figure that could be a bit tedious/cryptic for your purposes.

You have Photoshop? It's pretty good about that stuff. Mine is a seven-year-old version, but you should still be able to follow along with CC or whatever. :)

qmfIDyR.gif


A GIF about making GIFs. Somebody get Chris Nolan on the phone.

Taking selfies in public restrooms. You're MacRumors' official Kim Kardashian.
:rolleyes: It's not like posting selfies is a regular occurrence. The above GIF not withstanding. Or the Shrink vandalism. Or my avatar. Or all of those iOS beta jokes about the skin smoothing being fixed. Or… okay, you have a point.
 

Apple fanboy

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:oops: Damnit, I told myself I wasn't going to let people on this forum make my cry anymore…


Hmm, my first impulse was to suggest something like FFmpeg, which is a command line tool primarily used for video conversion, but I figure that could be a bit tedious/cryptic for your purposes.

You have Photoshop? It's pretty good about that stuff. Mine is a seven-year-old version, but you should still be able to follow along with CC or whatever. :)

qmfIDyR.gif


A GIF about making GIFs. Somebody get Chris Nolan on the phone.


:rolleyes: It's not like posting selfies is a regular occurrence. The above GIF not withstanding. Or the Shrink vandalism. Or my avatar. Or all of those iOS beta jokes about the skin smoothing being fixed. Or… okay, you have a point.
I have PS creative cloud so I'll give it a go.
 
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