Okay
@jimmy_uk, to talk you off this ledge, I'm going to mention one thing only: your own words.
"I am concerned about security."
If you won't use a phone because it could hurt you physically--as you are wise to decide--do you really want to choose to use a phone that makes you feel unsafe in other ways?
Would you move to a nice flat in a sketchy neighborhood? Tell yourself I'll just buy extra locks and not go outside? Or only go out in light and be super vigilant?
Maybe you would, maybe you would be happy. And you can absolutely choose that later, but maybe right now you can just feel that frustration and disappointment that you feel because of Apple. What you're feeling is very real, so feel it. And later make a decision that can affect your safety.