IMO humans are cursed in that we often engage in 'if I had only done x' counterfactual thinking. I do think it is important to how we learn, but sometimes it just seems a little harsh and self-punishing.Thinking I've been nowhere in my life and how happy I could be if I made other choices. Feel a little depressed and looking at the **** I see in the news or feed, just sucks the joy of life I had prior.
Only things that still makes me smile and move on is my family and riding my motorcyle.
I hope you feel better soon. I understand about the news being bad all the time. It seems to me we are going backwards and possibly recapitulating much of the 1930's and 1940's, but I think news goes in cycles. Hopefully things will get better soon. FWIW when I get down, I listen to the Blues and wait it out.